I started working on the buildup of waiting list commissions from October. Sheez it is a lot of stuff.
I managed to cut down some of the work though. I bought some silicone compound for making molds, which was a roaring success compared to the shitty paint-on latex I'd been using. Luckily, many of the commission requests were for the same items so I was able to utilize the molds to save time. Nothing can reduce the painting time but eh. What can I do.
I've been a little tired lately from working the two jobs but not as much as I'd expect. I think I'm becoming more physically fit at least. Getting up at 4 every morning hasn't bothered me as much as I expected either. I go to bed at 9 now and sometimes take naps on days where I don't have much work to do ( goodbye naps now that I'm doing jewellery again... )
I have been lamenting the loss of my free time. Normally I don't mind but it really sucks when I get inspired. I recently downloaded a song that really makes me think of my comic. I wish I could crack open flash and start making a music video for it, but I know that shit takes months of work and certainly won't happen when I'm working 2 jobs. I did some sketching last night before bed to help alleviate the feeling, but now all I want to do is colour them or work on my comic ( my sad sad abandoned comic with only one complete page and only three sketched ones...good god )
Sometimes I think about my video teacher from NAIT. After we watched my final presentation ( my old crappy music video on my old account ) he turned back to me and said "You've got a bright future"
Am I letting him down?
Am I letting me down?
I don't need to be a famous comic artist or movie maker or entertainer or whatever but sometimes I pine for it in a way. Before I die, I want to make one GOOD music video. Something that really gets the idea of Facility across.
If I won the lottery and could do anything I wanted for as long as I wanted that would be it.
If I thought more about it maybe I'd make time and make it work. If I thought less about it, I would just work and not worry about it. I'm stuck in the damn middle. Painfully disappointingly average.
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