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If you give me a llama I will return it,
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Sun Mar 29, 2015, 11:01 AM


SORRY FOR THE JOURNAL DOUBLE WHAMMY. I want to update now though to minimize any undue worrying that you wonderful people may do [ people that I absolutely do not deserve to be in the presence of, I'm very lucky and thankful for you ]

Status Update: I have slept. I slept last night very solidly, like the dead with no dreams for at least 9 hours. I think 10. [ which is incredibly long for me ]. I have recovered to the point of being able to function fully, though I'm feeling very weak, still a bit tired, and the heart pounding/adrenaline remains to some degree.

I have a game plan now. We are seeking out a family doctor to give all of the ER's test information to. We're going to ask about many options and try to come up with a long term plan for improving my health. Ignoring the problems and repeatedly letting my body degrade to the point that I need to go to emergency is clearly not working.

I also have a personal game plan.

This morning I woke up and did not go to my computer. I made a real breakfast with eggs, then I sat down in the living room and watched cartoons for more than a single hour and didn't look at my phone. I took a multivitamin with my breakfast and had tea. Once I finish this journal entry, I'm going to go for a slow paced walk to the grocer a few blocks away and pick out some fresh meat and veggies for lunch.

I'm giving my body flowers and an apology for how I've been treating it. I can't ignore the possibility that my episode was a direct result of my vicious neglect for my own well being and my complete lack of balance with my current obsession.

I wasn't kidding when I was talking in comments these past two weeks when I said I wasn't doing anything other than digital art. I really, seriously, wasn't. I woke up, stuffed some random instant food in my mouth, went straight to my comp to draw, and would sit there until dinner when I'd force myself to make dinner and spend a single hour with Alan absentmindedly while furiously checking my phone. Then back on to my computer until 1 in the morning. I did this for a few weeks. The house was getting dirty, my face was breaking out in zits [ I normally have very clear skin ], laundry piled...

The most damning evidence is something I realized in the ER while hooked up to everything. My heart rate would sometimes slow a bit and almost approach normal, but then I'd think about my characters or my comic- boom, right back up to 100-120. I didn't want to connect the dots.

I think I may have literally obsessed myself into the hospital.

So, while that puts the blame even more heavily on myself, I'm going to try and accept this situation for what it is and just go to my personal game plan.

• Exercise. I completely stopped since I've been reaching my weight loss goals with food management. But exercise isn't just for weight, I think I need to consider it much more seriously for mental health.

• Time away from art. I need to watch more netflix or something. Play a video game. Harvest moon is coming out in a couple days. I have to give myself some brain down time.

• Forgive. I'll need time for this one but I need to try.

So, that's what's happening now. I also want to shout out to anyone who's been watching or commenting, or just lurking. I really appreciate you. I'm incredibly lucky to have friends who care for me. Thank you.


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:iconjerneinoui:
JerNeinOui Featured By Owner 14 hours ago  Student Artist
Curse you I'm addicted! :O
Make a new one! Quick! Before I go all hysterical!
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner 14 hours ago
I'm very flattered ^///^ ~<3 I'm workin on it right now!

Gonna take a smidge longer since the next page has more panels and WAY more background detail than I usually do XD
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:iconjerneinoui:
JerNeinOui Featured By Owner 13 hours ago  Student Artist
Gah! You're so evil! :D
The anticipation's gonna kill me... :O
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DarkSparkle1808 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Student Artist
I can not wait for the next page of the comic book of TINR :happybounce: 
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner 3 days ago
^____^!!!!! That's fills me with joy!!!! <3<3<3 I'll work hard ^o^
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:icondarksparkle1808:
DarkSparkle1808 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Student Artist
Hug 
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:iconkikicreations456:
KikiCreations456 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Filmographer
Thanks for the llama, your art is awesome!
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Thank you! ^o^ I always return a llama brah ^_~
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:iconarukioru-zarina:
Arukioru-Zarina Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I guess, many people tell you, that you're amazing, don't they?
So I would just repeat it, if I say so :meow:

Your gallery is so wonderful :meow:
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner 6 days ago
People mostly just tell me that I'm an ass and they're going to punch me in the tits. But amazing sounds really really nice! Thank you!!!! <3
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:iconarekuruukaze:
Arekuruukaze Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Gosh your comic looks so good!! It's really interesting so far and I'm really excited for seeing more!
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015
woooooop!!!! ^o^ I'm excited to show you more! *works furiously* XD
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:iconarekuruukaze:
Arekuruukaze Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Keep it up! Go!Go!Go!

But also make sure that you have fun with it! Don't work too hard!
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Gatobob Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015
Oh I'm having fun :diabolic: 
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:iconcr0atoan:
Cr0atoan Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Were you planning on livestreaming today? I remember seeing you post that somewhere lol
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015
Yup that's the plan! I'm only going to post about it on tumblr though I don't want it to get crazy or anything
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:iconcr0atoan:
Cr0atoan Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Haha. Whoops. Sorry about that. Do you have the time posted?
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:icongatobob:
Gatobob Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015
nah I don't have a specific time. Not long now. If it's anything like my other sessions I'm gonna being doing it for hoursssss so like. all night. I'll probably start up around 5-6 my time [ MDT right now I think ]
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Adriellovesart Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2015
Hey, Gato. I thought you could use a laugh, so, here is a video of one of my co-workers. He posted it from another co-workers phone himself, so, enjoy! m.youtube.com/watch?v=VFblPNV1…
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Gatobob Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2015
THAT WAS FANTASTIC
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